3rd July 2001...it was pouring and was kind of cold...i (Aaira-tall,thin,fair but with glasses and a low self esteem ) was walking towards school..a new school..from my ex school..it was not a great feeling coz i had to repeat a year... couldn't cope up to get my grades enough to clear as i was not in good health to complete my papers n wasn't even that good in maths..itz way to logical..n i guess, i think from my heart...
i was almost on time for the morning prayers..the school use to make a big deal of it...the rains also had poured and finished its quota for a while...according to the system..the girls n boys had to stand in to different groups...it use to be a almost a 15 min affair..
it was 9th std again..and i had a girl named charmi (who lived in my building ) in this new school..St.Lawrence High School...i dint wanted to meet her coz i was afraid she would tell everyone about me repeating a year..
As i entered my class i sat on the second last bench...i use to almost ignore everyone around..just waitin for the school to finish..this attitude was there for atleast 2-3 months..had made two close friends Drasty and Pankhuri.
we had the'monitors' and 'prefects' and the honoured school's 'Head boy'..Vinay ...tall dark..im not saying he was handsome..but he was attractive...and had a girlfriend Sneha..with cat eyes and fair skin..Miss Popular..
one day there was a meet and he thought i fit a replaced person's position very well..weird..he dint think of his girlfriend but me..!!! i had to sit with vinay and sneha wad a trio...god's sake..
i was hating that moment..im not sure if i was jealous but it was uncomfortable..i just hated vinay more from that moment...after two days i was attending my English class taken by my class teacher..she was strict and rude..so i was trying ti focus and keep extra attention...suddenly a monitor of other class appears and gives mam a note..everyone was quiet and mam looked at me...i was scared she told me that der is Asha mam..who needs to see me..and i was like i dont even know who this new Asha mam is..
i came outside the class..with a confused expression...i started walking down the stairs and i see vinay and that girl who got the note..vinay gave me a smile but i dint react..so they both explained that the whole Asha mam calling me was a fake call..to get me down..
he said that the miss prefect is absent n cant make it for a representation for a function with him..and i was like "do you think i would miss my classes and spend time with u ! " i was rude coz i hated him..but he dint feel bad..we dint talk much..but always had the eye contact talking..
slowly things settled down..on 1st August Friendship's day...he came up to me and wrote on my hand "HAPPY FRIENDSHIP'S DAY -YOURS VINAY"
even i wrote on his hand the wishes..and co incidently we kept that ink till next day ..avoiding to wash the palm..our liking for each other was in our hearts but we dint tell anything..months passed by..and our friendship grew..the vacations came and it was evident that the distance was going to be painful..so we started calling eachother rarely though..there were no cellphones at that time..
next thing you know we end up in the same class..as if it was god's wish for us to be close...i was very shy..i would not even sit next to him on the bench..he use to walk me home from school..where we would get our private time..his friends use to tease him..but he dint care much coz for him i was more important..
his friends asked him to make it formal..coz almost everyone had an idea that we both like each other..
One day...while dropping me home, he tried telling me something but was fumbling..nervous like hell..
his friends called him at one corner..yelling at him..and abusing..one guy even hit him on his back..
he came back ..saw my face ..smiled with butterflies in his stomach ..and proposed me..expressing in his gesture by lookin at me then looking down..the words were sounding like honey+sugar+candy+almost everything sweet...i was blushing like crazzy..was so shy that i couldn't even look into his eyes..i told him..il let you know my ans by tommrow..
so from the next day we started carrying on..officially...it was such a pride...i use to remove my glasses during morning prayers to give a fresh new pretty face look and not the nerdy look..coz after prayers he use to get busy..as he was a athlete also..so the practice time..would take him away from me for the first class..i use to badly wait to see him..the relation was going smooth...Love blossmed...
even my class teacher and almost the whole school knew about my love affair...my class teacher use to actually tease us..
In Dec 2002..we had a camp to Jaipur for 7 days..everyone were excited making shopping list and deciding all the crazy stuff we can plan..the day came,early morning everyone with parents and suitcases were ready..the worst condition of the trip was that the girls and boys have to stay differently and can almost not even talk...i dint have parents with me in school...they just dropped my stuff..they never come to drop me or say the good bies.. but there was vinay with his Dad...he walked towards me and looked at my baggage..
there was this look on his face..mixed emotion types..he told me that "if u want il carry your luggage..how can u possibly carry all of it..my sweetheart"...suddenly my mam arrived and looked at us..she said vinay enough of romantic scene..we gotta leave..
we all left in the bus..reached station and guess what..the whole train was booked for us..so the boys were in a different boogie..so that opposite sexes cannot even get a glimpse of eachother...
the train started..after a while..there was attendance..n vinay begged my class teacher on his knees..that he has to see me once...plzzzz.but it was against the rules to get a guy in girls compartment....he forced mam
so she had to get convinced but only for 5 mins..
Mam got her near my seat..and every girl beside my seat were shocked amazed and waiting to hear our conversation...he looked at me..smiled and said.." i dont know how will these 7 days pass..without you..u plz take care of yourself..u mean a lot to me.." i was all okay..happie go lucky mood..i told him thats sweet of u..n v had our good-bye..
then after he left my girlfriends were like he is so sweet and romantic..ure so lucky !!!!
there it clicked me...that i am going to miss him real bad...and i was not sure of my actual feelings..but there were tears in my eyes..and i realised..it might be juvenile to be in love-love...
but this is surely a " LOT LIKE LOVE "...
i was almost on time for the morning prayers..the school use to make a big deal of it...the rains also had poured and finished its quota for a while...according to the system..the girls n boys had to stand in to different groups...it use to be a almost a 15 min affair..
it was 9th std again..and i had a girl named charmi (who lived in my building ) in this new school..St.Lawrence High School...i dint wanted to meet her coz i was afraid she would tell everyone about me repeating a year..
As i entered my class i sat on the second last bench...i use to almost ignore everyone around..just waitin for the school to finish..this attitude was there for atleast 2-3 months..had made two close friends Drasty and Pankhuri.
we had the'monitors' and 'prefects' and the honoured school's 'Head boy'..Vinay ...tall dark..im not saying he was handsome..but he was attractive...and had a girlfriend Sneha..with cat eyes and fair skin..Miss Popular..
one day there was a meet and he thought i fit a replaced person's position very well..weird..he dint think of his girlfriend but me..!!! i had to sit with vinay and sneha wad a trio...god's sake..
i was hating that moment..im not sure if i was jealous but it was uncomfortable..i just hated vinay more from that moment...after two days i was attending my English class taken by my class teacher..she was strict and rude..so i was trying ti focus and keep extra attention...suddenly a monitor of other class appears and gives mam a note..everyone was quiet and mam looked at me...i was scared she told me that der is Asha mam..who needs to see me..and i was like i dont even know who this new Asha mam is..
i came outside the class..with a confused expression...i started walking down the stairs and i see vinay and that girl who got the note..vinay gave me a smile but i dint react..so they both explained that the whole Asha mam calling me was a fake call..to get me down..
he said that the miss prefect is absent n cant make it for a representation for a function with him..and i was like "do you think i would miss my classes and spend time with u ! " i was rude coz i hated him..but he dint feel bad..we dint talk much..but always had the eye contact talking..
slowly things settled down..on 1st August Friendship's day...he came up to me and wrote on my hand "HAPPY FRIENDSHIP'S DAY -YOURS VINAY"
even i wrote on his hand the wishes..and co incidently we kept that ink till next day ..avoiding to wash the palm..our liking for each other was in our hearts but we dint tell anything..months passed by..and our friendship grew..the vacations came and it was evident that the distance was going to be painful..so we started calling eachother rarely though..there were no cellphones at that time..
next thing you know we end up in the same class..as if it was god's wish for us to be close...i was very shy..i would not even sit next to him on the bench..he use to walk me home from school..where we would get our private time..his friends use to tease him..but he dint care much coz for him i was more important..
his friends asked him to make it formal..coz almost everyone had an idea that we both like each other..
One day...while dropping me home, he tried telling me something but was fumbling..nervous like hell..
his friends called him at one corner..yelling at him..and abusing..one guy even hit him on his back..
he came back ..saw my face ..smiled with butterflies in his stomach ..and proposed me..expressing in his gesture by lookin at me then looking down..the words were sounding like honey+sugar+candy+almost everything sweet...i was blushing like crazzy..was so shy that i couldn't even look into his eyes..i told him..il let you know my ans by tommrow..
so from the next day we started carrying on..officially...it was such a pride...i use to remove my glasses during morning prayers to give a fresh new pretty face look and not the nerdy look..coz after prayers he use to get busy..as he was a athlete also..so the practice time..would take him away from me for the first class..i use to badly wait to see him..the relation was going smooth...Love blossmed...
even my class teacher and almost the whole school knew about my love affair...my class teacher use to actually tease us..
In Dec 2002..we had a camp to Jaipur for 7 days..everyone were excited making shopping list and deciding all the crazy stuff we can plan..the day came,early morning everyone with parents and suitcases were ready..the worst condition of the trip was that the girls and boys have to stay differently and can almost not even talk...i dint have parents with me in school...they just dropped my stuff..they never come to drop me or say the good bies.. but there was vinay with his Dad...he walked towards me and looked at my baggage..
there was this look on his face..mixed emotion types..he told me that "if u want il carry your luggage..how can u possibly carry all of it..my sweetheart"...suddenly my mam arrived and looked at us..she said vinay enough of romantic scene..we gotta leave..
we all left in the bus..reached station and guess what..the whole train was booked for us..so the boys were in a different boogie..so that opposite sexes cannot even get a glimpse of eachother...
the train started..after a while..there was attendance..n vinay begged my class teacher on his knees..that he has to see me once...plzzzz.but it was against the rules to get a guy in girls compartment....he forced mam
so she had to get convinced but only for 5 mins..
Mam got her near my seat..and every girl beside my seat were shocked amazed and waiting to hear our conversation...he looked at me..smiled and said.." i dont know how will these 7 days pass..without you..u plz take care of yourself..u mean a lot to me.." i was all okay..happie go lucky mood..i told him thats sweet of u..n v had our good-bye..
then after he left my girlfriends were like he is so sweet and romantic..ure so lucky !!!!
there it clicked me...that i am going to miss him real bad...and i was not sure of my actual feelings..but there were tears in my eyes..and i realised..it might be juvenile to be in love-love...
but this is surely a " LOT LIKE LOVE "...
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