I wish i could understand

Writing after ages is little difficult than i thought...but i have got inspired by someone in recent...
This is something which i feel..
I feel like I'm waiting
for something that I
know in the back of my mind
probably wont happen.
I just don't want to fully admit it to myself
I've already set my hopes so high...

There is a time in almost every person's life where one tries to figure out what's going on ???
you would thinking why am I talking like I'm all lost
and the answer is...i wish i could understand

I really don't know if i am needy, or just want to hide..
i would restrain my feelings like there is nothing going on my mind
It is way too difficult to control everything at the same time
There are times when you wanna just give in..
i tell myself sometimes that i would do anything to just come in his dreams once in a while
coz it would be stupid to just stand by..

I would just like for every person to let them open up and share what is their inside
it is not necessary that everything has to end up with love and promises like a lovely romantic movie has been ever built up in our mind...
just never let the time go away and latter regret the things you never said or be there for someone you care

Like..believe and care for the people who are important in your life..and the most important thing..please be true to yourself while thinking of what i said all this while..
By now I'm sure you would thinking why am i sharing this thought which seems to be specifically personal..but no my dear friend..it is not...but i wish i could understand the way i feel and decide to share it like this..

P.S : SPECIALLY FOR YOU ..THANK YOU..for inspiring me to start writing once again..